I'm so freakin' pumped! I was just browsing around looking at available video games today on the interweb, trying to compose a list of games I would like to play, and I found out that Tales of the Abyss is already released here in the states!!!!! I love the "Tales" games so much. I still need to finish Tales of Phantasia and Tales of Legendia though. I. Am. So. Pumped.

Ok, since I've already started, I might as well continue an update in this entry.

We have a student teacher for our Economics class. He's been here for a while already and pretty much everybody wants him gone. We miss our old teacher. When the student teacher is sick, our old teacher teaches us instead, and it's so easy to see the difference between how much we learn and junk. I learn waaaaaaaaaaay more and actually understand the stuff from our old teacher, and the class period just flies by, unlike when the student teacher is there, 5 minutes feels like an eternity.
But we found out today that we only have to put up with the student teacher for 3 1/2 more weeks. Happy. We'll have our old teacher back by the time we take exams, which is deffinetely a good thing. A lot of grades took a hit when the student teacher started.
I really don't think it's fair to the students to place a student teacher for their class, especially when the class is a required class and it's their senior year *glares at the school*(I really hate our school and the people who are running it. They don't seem to be on top of things and do some really dumb stuff)
*sigh*-_- only 2 1/2 more marking periods...

So, on deviantart I kept seeing all these fanarts for Ouran High School Host Club, and for ages I've been wanting to check it out.
Low and behold, on one of my very frequent visits to the bookstore(I go at least once a week...I'm running out of books to look at-_-), well, I was looking at the manga section and say Ouran High School Host Club there. Of course there was no way I could pass up this chance to check it out. I must say I LOVE IT!!!! It's so cute and funny! I've gotten and read volumes 1 & 2. The bookstore didn't have vol. 3, so they're ordering it for me....I don't want to wait that long
I wish we had a larger bookstore, there would be more series of manga and other various books. I love the wonderful 3 story Borders in Chicago. When I went there, I had such a field day browsing *goes into a dream like state* *sigh*.

So that means that when I am completely incapable of paying attention to homework and I have stuff that's really getting to me, I will be writing journal entries or something.

So, I think I'm falling into a rut of depression right now. Over the summer my depression was brought on by the Kingdom Hearts II video game, now it's being brought on by the book "New Moon" by Stephanie Meyer. I hate it that the things I so dearly love are the things that hurt me the most. I hope this time I don't progress to what I was last time: random fits of almost continuous crying hours. School isn't doing anything to help me, it's not even keeping my mind preoccupied, so I'm not catching anything the teachers say today at all.

I feel so lonely lately. Sadly enough I'm feeling the need to be loved. I've gone two years already without being in a relationship and I've been perfectly fine about it, I relished in the fact that I didn't NEED someone to complete me. But this book has reminded me just how great sometimes it is to be in love, and it has turned me back into a lovesick puppydog; a hopeless romantic. I hurts to know that I'll probably not find anybody up here I like enough. This town is full of stupid, annoying, lame-ass guys.

It feels weird typing all this stuff. Pouring my heart out for all who happen to wander by to see. It's a bit disconcerting actually. But I don't really get to speak my feelings. There are some friends that I would trust with these things, but I'd feeling completely stupid and whiny, plus there's just never a right time to speak of things like these when I'm around.

So, on a lighter note. October 21st Helmi, Kyle, and myself are going to hopefully be seeing Flogging Molly in concert, of all the strangest places, up in this little nowhere town. We're gonna go buy our tickets this weekend. I'm excited. I've never actually been to a "real" concert. I hope I can learn to loosen up and not be a complete mood killer like I usually am when not listening to music indirectly.

School is being a drag so far. I don't think it'll get much better. There's some new people, but nobody worth liking. The homework load for me this year is appalling. I've already started rolling downhill and I need to figure out how to stop and start climbing up again. I'll have to only work during the weekends now, which means about $100 less for each paycheck-_- Quite a bit has seemed to change this year with the whole friends/group situation. I'm learning a lot of new things that I didn't know before. Like who dislikes who now that used to be friends last year and that our big group has split into like three smaller groups and I'm glad to find that I actually fit in with one of them now. Before it was just like I was standing on the sidelines constantly, I couldn't relate to enough people. I think I enjoy this smaller group, it makes it easier in some ways.

Well, I believe this is long enough now. I have resurrected my deviantart journal because I can't reach livejournal because of the blocking system. I wish I could resurrect my gallery, but I have yet to produce anything i deem deviantart.com worthy. So I shall be back again. Good-bye.

Reason for entry: Boredom. Nothing special. Just Study Hall room is horrible, so I come to the Library, which is rather boring. There just happened to be a computer open, so I decide to be stupid and update for almost no reason.

I finally found out that my Mother is stashing the batteries somewhere in her room. I think I know where. I'll go snoop after school. Hopefully then I can use the digital camera to try and get an ID up. Today I'm dressed all funnly, so I think it be interesting to have my ID with me looking weird. Majorly big lashes! That also glow in the dark. I love it. I also love the reactions I've gotten from people today. Soooooooooo entertaining. YEAH! Orange and Black day, and in the Halloween section at Wal-Mart, I just happened to stumble upon these awesome things. Uncomfortable though, unfortunatly. Hell was supposed to wear her's today too, but they weren't cooperating with her.

I think my essay is going to me good. About three people proof-read it today, and they barely had anything to say. All I have to do is find synonoms(I hate that word....I can't pronounce it...let alone spell it). Won't be hard though. So when I turn this in, Mr. Leach better damn well give me a good grade or I will be very put out. I also did my poetry presentation today. "The Lake" by: Edgar Allan Poe. Awesome poem. My presentation on the other hand? Not so great. 17/20, but I should've done worse in my opinion. I can't talk in front of classes or groups worth shit. I always shake and stutter and usually talk way too quickly and end up fumbling on the words.

Assembly today. I'm excited. There's actually a chance that we juniors will win the Spirit Stick this time. That's only because all the other grades have about the same school spirit and us....and that's not much. Barely anybody, compared to the other years, did the dress-up days. At least we actually have a mock rock. Sarah and I want to do the Wingding mock rock. My idea may finally work at last! happiness.

To everyone: I'm sorry for boring your minds out. I truely cannot help myself from rambling and ranting like I am now. Good-bye.

I feel like this journal will be a lot more active than it recently has been. Not much has been happening in my Online French class, and I can't get to livejournla of the school computers. But I can get to deviantart.

Today I felt major boredom and a big urge to post something since it's still not possible for me to post drawings. So I was going to try and make an ID. But the batteries in our digital camera are dead and I can't find more batteries. I know mother recently bought more batteries, but like usual in my house, when you try looking for something, the chances of finding it are very slim. So I didn't find them. Sadness. Boo-hoo.

I've recently been pulled into the "Naruto" craze. Actually I've become obsessed with it. And it has made me a very happy person. I hate how anime takes forever to reach the U.S. Us anime lovers over here a so deprived Also unfortunately, I'm the only anime freak in my whole group of friends so sad.

Ugh. Essays are horrid. Deffinetely not my forte. For American Literature we're supposed to have our 5 paragraph essay rough draft done by tomorrow. I only have two paragraphs done right now. I'm taking a break. I still have to do all my Literary Endeavours that are also due tomorrow too. Hopefully those won't take too long.

HAPPINESS! Criss Angel is on TV righ now *squeal* He recently has become my idol. He's amazing. No matter what anyone says to me, I still believe in magic. To me it's all about harnessing your body's energy and applying it the right way.

WEll, it's time to hit the essay again -_-